Cursed!

I think I am cursed with the same things of brain that mom has been with.
Similar hormonal imbalances that play havoc with my sleep cycle.
Constant unrest and ramblings. Over-analyzing and thinking too much.
Unsupportive and unkind environment. Suffocating loneliness and too much of own company.
No excitement. And for me, all of it goes a little bit too much further - with all of the understanding that I have ‘coz of so much reading about various mental health issues, psychologies and how different people respond to different conditions/ situations. So much of knowledge available at my fingertips and so far away from the buzzing busy life of back home. And none to share and discuss all the knowledge I have gained, with. It is a vicious, unhealthy, unforgiving cycle of loneliness reinforcing more loneliness. I fear, I may fall a victim to my own mind with all the constant churning that goes on up in my head. I see no saving me from me in any visible future so far. God! help me.