Identity!

Copied and stuck together?
Copied by observing friends and people in general.
Stuck together - all the pieces of personality/ traits/ characteristics that were successful in impressing me in others? and those that I wanted to have in me?

But, all the people in my immediate circle of family (at various stages/ points in my life), could see through the cracks/ gaps of those pieces that were stuck together, were only looking at the deficiencies/ deficits. It made the pieces crumble as the glue holding the pieces was not strong enough in the sense it was not true? I could never be whole how ever much I tried. It was all a lie, a facade I made up and put up.