It has been a whirlwind of emotions for me the past two years.
Memory upon memory of pain just pouncing upon me from the ugly shadows of past.
Did not know that I was holding them in for too many years and stood strong so far.
Weathering them all and fighting my way forward.
All for what? To come to a pit-stop?
I question myself, "Did I not value myself enough and made myself too readily available for people that people stopped considering me human and took me and my time for granted?
Cutting down on my circle of close ones has made me realize that I am all alone and lonely too.
It is scary. I am falling apart and have no-one left to turn to.
I am counting down my days on Earth. My existence feels too painful to live.
No one knows the state I am in 'cause I don't show it out as usual - living away like nothing is wrong and delivering every duty of mine devoutly.
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